Hello, to everyone out there!
I am a single mother of five precious children. My oldest just celebrated her 10th birthday. I also have an 8 year old son, and two more daughters, ages 4, and 6 years.
Our newest, (and last), family edition is, 3 month old Judah Levi, and he is a pleasure to behold! He is our miracle baby, to be sure!
Before I became pregnant with him, I'd had my 1st, and only miscarrage! I subsequently became pregnant with Judah and, all seemed right with the world. That was until I begain to have serious problems, once again!
I quickly set-up an appointment with my OB/GYN, to come in for an evaluation, and an ultra sound. At that time, it was determined that I had been pregnant with twin boys!
I was beside myself! I had just lost a baby, and now they were telling me that I I had been pregnant with twins! However, they were very quick to explain that, although one twin was no longer viable, the other twin was perfectly fine, and that there was no reason that I could not carry the remaining baby to term.
I was so afraid, but God helped me to focus on the fact that, although I had lost yet another baby, I still had a perfectly healthy baby inside of me, that I needed to be happy, and proud for!
Well, I tried to calm myself, the best I could, and, praise God, on July 15, 2008, I gave birth to a perfectly healthy 6lb. 8oz., baby boy! And, oh, man, was he beautiful!!!
Anyway, getting back on to the subject at hand, his dad and I had to seperate, shortly after his birth. Our parting of ways, has frankly, been devistating for me!
I had thought that we would be a family, together, forever! Yet, it didn't turn out that way. Now, I realize that it was the best thing that could have happened for all us.
Anyway, this situation has left me in a very awkward position! Not only do I have a 3 month old child, (who is breastfed), but I also have a 4 year old, who isn't old enough to go to school yet!
My children are not the only ones that I have to care for, and deal with on a daily basis. I am also am the sole care giver for my permanently disabled mother, (who has severe nerve damage to her spine due to a work-related injury), as well as my 72 year old grandfather, (who has C.O.P.D., Aspestosis, and Silicosis).
I am now physically capable of returning to my previous position as a licensed practical nurse. However, I simply feel that I cannot leave my 3 month old, breast-fed child, yet, neither can I abandon my disabled mother, nor my elderly grandfather, as they are not capable of caring for themselves, at this point, and there is no one else to care for them!
Yet, if I don't go back to work, then my children will have no hope of having a Christmas!
If they were older, it wouldn't matter so much, but, my children are still at the age of believing, and I so desperately don't want them to be disappointed! It would just break my heart to see them on Christmas morning, with no gifts waiting under our sadly bowed, and recently borrowed Christmas tree!
They still believe in Christmas, in Santa Clauss, and in the values and sentiments to which we have all so long been attatched.
Give, and it will be given,..., ask, and you will receive....,seek, and you will find,....do unto others....
All these things constitute the American way! We have all been raised upon these principles! Our faith, and power to believe in these things, I believe, are some of our are greatest stregnths!
The true message that I feel we all want to send to our children is that; miracles can and do happen, when we all start to care for one another! This is the kind of message I believe we all want our children to recieve.
I believe that it is also important for them to understand that, sometimes, we simply need the help of others. And when that is so, there is always someone with a loving heart, and a caring spirit, willing to reach out and help, simply because it is the right thing to do!
I am hoping, and believing that there is a way to make their christmas dreams come true! And, if anyone out there knows of anyway that some type of christmas help can be obtained, it would be greatly, and most genuinely appreciated!
Wishing you all the best,
Blessed to have 5!
